Feeling shaky and sad… and that is ok…

Dear Friends,

I awoke today feeling sad and emotionally tired, brittle, shaky, and on edge….  and instead of trying to cheer myself or distract myself… I just went with it.  I meditated and prayed and went on with my day and worked.  Still tired, still feeling blue, but I am also ok.

One of the lessons that the Universe has seen fit to share with me lately, in so many small and large ways, is that neither Religion nor Spiritual Practice are always fun or comfortable…. if they are something is very wrong!  Religion should, as the old misquote goes, comfort the afflicted ~and~ afflict the comfortable.  Spiritual Practice, if you are really pursuing it, should occasionally knock stuff loose that you have buried or need to deal with.

Then too, it is ok to not be happy all the time… there is this insidious idea that we should be happy and comfortable at all times and if we are not there is something wrong with us.. and that we should probably buy something or do something someone else wants us to do in order to get back to “normal”…

So I have sat with sadness today, and am still here… tomorrow/later today (ah, the joys of strange schedules and insomnia…)  I will work on my practices and do some housework and get things ready to do a belated Circle… I shall shake the jars that need shaking and start the new journal/practice-log and talk to the Fabulous Jonathan and go in to work again tomorrow.

Peace,

Pax

2 thoughts on “Feeling shaky and sad… and that is ok…

  1. …there is this insidious idea that we should be happy and comfortable at all times and if we are not there is something wrong with us.. and that we should probably buy something or do something someone else wants us to do in order to get back to “normal”…

    Insidious is right! I’m watching a friend run himself ragged over this idea. What’s worse, it’s created an abominable union with his tendencies towards codependency and a healthy serving of magical thinking. The end result, a mentality that says “If I just do more things for other people (family, friends, church), my life will magically turn around and things will be better and I will be happy.” Unfortunately, he’s not ready to hear “it doesn’t work that way.”

    I wish you the best during this time of emotional trouble, Pax. I’ll leave it to you and the gods to decide what “the best” looks like at the moment, though. 😉

  2. Pax

    Thank you for your kind words. It wasn’t really a specific thing or issue causing me to feel fragile the other day… mentally and spiritually brittle really, just a generalized but very deep unsettled feeling…

    The joys of the journey and of spiritual practice… whee!

    As for your friend, I would say the best thing you can do for him is to be there as a friend to listen, to be supportive, and to speak the truth to him as best you can…. dive into your own spiritual practices and don’t be afraid to ask the Holy Powers for some assistance with/for him… I find that it is especially important to dive into those things that keep us grounded and balanced and spiritually well nourished when those we care about are in a period of suffering or learning or challenge…

    Thanks, again for your kindness, and many hugs dear man,

    Pax

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