So we are betwixt and between the Calendrical and the Astronomical Lammas right now. Most traditionally a time of coming together with friends and family and community. Now I realize that Mabon is the time when I as a Witch am supposed to be thinking of Giving Thanks… but Gratitude is on my mind right now.
It is only slightly less than a year since the Big Guy broke up with me. It is also a little less than a year since I cast the most fervent prayer/spell I have ever cast.
At the time I decided, sometime in the first couple of months, that I we feeling a LOT of grief and that the thing I needed most was time. So I gave myself a year.
In that year I have grieved, faced a number of challenges, worked, prayed and done a lot of reading and thinking. I have had touching messages from friends I have met face to face and friends I (currently) know only through the Internet. I have had laughter and made new friends face to face and begun finding the pieces and parts of myself that I left behind in the move to Florida and that were knocked out of me when the Big Guy dumped me.
I take a moment to breathe in life force, and to exhale gratitude into my connection with all life.
Everything can be a lesson, every moment can make us wiser and stronger and happier and healthier… if we put in the work and are open to the inspriation. I have so much more to learn in this particular lifetime, but I feel like the last year has helped me put together puzzle pieces of a number of my life’s lessons so far, and taught me strange and new things. So this Lammas-tide I find myself Grateful, and looking forward to Mabon and to the Secular Thanksgiving Holidays even as I make my offerings of incense and libations to the Holy Powers in the regular rhythms of my life.
Pax / Geoffrey