Friends,

Today I woke up before the alarm. It was close enough to the time it would go off that turning over and going back to sleep/nap, while always tempting, was not a practical option. I have stumbled about my morning, drinking some coffee, scrolling through the news headlines to see which horrors are persisting in the world even as I try to persist through my day, I also got a few needed chores knocked off the list!

*Sips a celebratory sip of coffee.*

The last couple of weeks have seen a seemingly continued upswing and stabilization of my mental and emotional health and stability. At the same time new medications and the onslought of allergy season here in Central Florida, along with the wild upswing in business that comes each year with the late Winter/early Spring travel season have left me tired and feeling as if I have little time or energy for writing.

I keep remembering the snippet of thought I shared a few weeks back when I was feeling my Higher Self…

“The time for us to do the things we need to do, the time for us to do the things we want to do, will not simply emerge in our lives like Athena bursting forth from the neck of Zeus. Much like a sculptor’s masterwork laying dormant in a block of marble we have to go digging for it.”

Geoffrey S 2024

So for the last few weeks I have been making a practice of trying to get up early each day, giving myself around 3 hours before I need to get ready for work. This work is made easier by the fact that I have been in a habit of giving myself plenty of time to wake up and make myself ready for my day for a few years now… off and on. Sometimes this represented time spent journaling and meditating and pulling cards and otherwise trying to reconnect with myself and perhaps seethe with occult power. (A bear can dream after-all) At other times I was simply drinking my coffee, listening to the news on the radio, and spending a few moments grounding and centering. Often it would simply be quiet time, sipping coffee and drinking water and just trying to listen to my body and heart and mind and figure out what they needed in general and in the moment. A little too frequently for my own development and comfort, this ‘me’ time was spent scrolling through the various social media simply consuming and fretting over information and outrage.

It is not enough to excavate the time, we must be conscious of how we are filling it!

There have also been times where I have let this practice slide away in the rush of work and life. Times where I would let my inner critic and saboteur remind me of all my past foibles and failings and faults. Times where insomnia and the mad rush of days overtook me.

So now, once again, I am returning to this practice. To carving out some time for myself. To be. To think. To write. To listen to my body. To clear my mind. To do things that I need to do. To do things that I want to do.

Do you engage in this sort of work as well? What times of day do you take for yourself out of the day?

Bliss, and Blessed Be,
Pax / Geoffrey